Putting Yourself out there
When we write things, we are not just putting our words out there. We are putting a part of ourselves out there for the world to see and judge.
The hours and hours and hours of work, agonising over the details of plots, characters, themes, etc.
We leave a part of ourselves in every project.
When rejection comes, it hurts. It stings.
You apply for a possible grant opportunity for a project. A project you are exciting about, and can already see in your head.
But for some reason, the committee of your "peers" doesnt see it.
It hurts. I have applied for this grant 1 other time before and did not get it then either. Two times now, being rejected.
It's hard. But do I quit?
The first time I applied, for my project Make Believe. I completed it, on my own. I had an informal reading with some friends, and a formal reading as part of Live Bait's New Works Festival in 2019. There were plans to mount it this fall, before COVID. So those will have to wait.
So, what will I do with this next project, that didn't get approved. Didn't get deemed worthy by a select group of people.
I will do it. I will complete it.
I will succeed.
Don't ever let anyone put a cap on your success.
What is this project you wonder?
You're just going to have to wait and see.
Karen Cordes (AKA Kay)